These last couple of weeks have been hard for me in a way I can’t quite describe. I think it’s a combination of burnout and just recurring tragedies I’ve experienced in the last year—which I’m sure can be said for pretty much anyone right now. So of course, what was I to do but write a poem about it. Here’s a strewn together list of a few things I’ve been thinking a lot about lately.
my pile of dirty laundry
my unwalked dog
my junk food supply
my future?
plans
the hair tie holding up a weeks’ worth of unwashed hair
and how he must just be waiting
for the opportunity to break
the tasks my boss expects me to get done
because that’s my job, to get things done
i guess it’s also my job to pretend like I can
my ex from last year
yeah, i said last year
and yeah, i still think about you
my best friend who i’m ashamed to admit anything to
and yet, somehow
it’s okay to let the internet bleed for you
to let strangers know the things I still pine for
feels like the only way
I know how to feel
I think about
how to be happy again
This is truly what my brain looks like sometimes. It’s honestly a little scary. Here’s hoping you’re all doing okay and finding ways to push through any moments of uncertainty or burnout like this. Don’t forget to leave me a comment letting me know what you think!
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